hi everyone, im back i guess...ive been...thinking abt stuff and im....i have no idea how to articulate this but...i....i dont...i dont know? my weird little noggin always goes into weird little violent tangents, blood, guts, brains, murder, corpses, death whatever the fuck it is i dont...i feel disgusted when i see it but...i always keep wanting more?.?.??my brain always goes back into a spiral of fantasies of getting brutally murdered and gutted...weird whatever who cares, i may die in a ditch one day and no one would care, but whatever, just curious abt that, eh, who cares